Incredibly Wanted

What If I Never Get Pregnant?

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this episode, Gretchen checks in on Day 4, 5 and 9 of her IVF cycle and navigates the emotional roller coaster of IVF. In this solo episode, Gretchen talks about the loneliness she’s experiencing going through this process as a single person and how she’s coping and reaching out for support. Gretchen also questions why she’s making this podcast to begin with while dealing with so many feelings of vulnerability. Gretchen explores her “what if”s and what she fears.
 
 
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instagram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com

Preparing

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this episode, we listen in as Gretchen prepares to begin her 2nd round of IVF using donor sperm. She shares her game plan for the cycle and what she has been doing to prepare herself physically, emotionally and spiritually this time around. In this vulnerable solo episode, Gretchen shares how her personal spiritual practice has helped her cross over from self-doubt into feeling ready to move forward in this process. 
 
Mentioned in this episode:
Animal Spirit Deck by The Wild Unknown
Tarot Deck by The Wild Unknown
Archetypes Oracle Deck by The Wild Unknown
It Starts With The Egg by Rebecca Fett
Spirit Babies by Walter Makichen
 
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instagram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 

Interlude

Welcome back to Incredibly Wanted
This week's episode is a mini episode, a transition point between one set of stories to a new one. We'll be back next week with a full length episode as the story continues...

Let People Love You

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this episode, Gretchen shares what happened when she told her closest family members what she was up to and how receiving support changed the experience of trying to conceive as a single person. Gretchen shares her experience starting the IVF process and more “angels” that turn up to offer guidance along the way.
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 
Guest Bio: 
 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lense of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonnieGoff

My Mom

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this week’s episode we follow along as Gretchen starts working with a fertility clinic to assist with conceiving using donor sperm. As Gretchen pursues this path, her mother is diagnosed with a rare and rapidly progressing disease of the brain. Bonnie shares about her own fertility challenges and the conception stories of both of her sons.
 
Topics Include:
 
Real talk about what it’s like working with a fertility clinic
 
The unexpected news of Gretchen's mothers progressive illness 
 
Challenges with conception and various methods for supporting conception and tracking ovulation.
 
The importance of having doctors who are aligned and supportive. 
 
Benefits of tracking menstrual cycles outside of trying to conceive a child
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 
Guest Bio: 
 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lense of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonnieGoff

Do You Guys Want To Talk About Sperm Donors?

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this episode we learn about what the process of choosing a sperm donor is like. Gretchen shares her experience navigating the world of donor banks and what it’s like to go through this process. Gretchen shares how she went about the process of choosing as some of the highs and lows of going through the process. Bonnie, Sam and Gretchen discuss all things nature vs. nurture, genes, and epigenetics. They also discuss some of the situations that would come up in the future, such as meeting half-siblings and the donor after age 18.
Topics Include:
What it’s like to talk about sensitive topics like this publicly.
 
The process of choosing a sperm donor via a sperm bank.
 
The impact and process of finding donor conceived siblings.
 
The likely possibility of half-siblings and how to navigate these relationships.
 
The potential for meeting the donor when the child is 18.
 
Being the source of comfort and support in the journey of self acceptance and starting early.
 
The painful process of letting go of what could have been and the peace that comes once you finally do.
 
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 
Guest Bio: 
 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lense of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonnieGoff

A Hummingbird, Dan and the Tank.

In this episode of Incredibly Wanted, Gretchen shares the next chapter in the story and what happened after her marriage ended. Gretchen, Bonnie and Sam talk about how new experience change your perception of what’s possible. Gretchen explores a new relationship while beginning the process of trying to get pregnant using donor sperm. The process of ICI insemination at home is discussed as well as the emotional roller coaster of waiting for pregnancy results while trying to conceive. This episode is filled with twists and turns.
Topics Include:
 
Finding light in the darkness through gardening 
Meeting an old friend that becomes a pillar of support 
Talking with a new partner about the decision to start a family solo
At home ICI insemination using donor sperm
The emotional rollercoaster of waiting for pregnancy results 
Gretchen’s thoughts on how to talk to a future child about their origin story
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 
Guest Bio: 
 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lense of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonnieGoff
 

Dark Days

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted.
 
In this next episode, the story of Gretchen’s journey towards motherhood continues. shares how the experience of quarantine during the Covid pandemic impacted her desire for family and describes the moment she knew she needed to acknowledge this desire. Gretchen, Sam and Bonnie discuss their individual experiences grieving their marriages when they ended and the healing process afterwards.
 
Topics Include:
How the Covid quarantine increased Gretchen’s desire to start a family
The importance and difficulty of being honest about your desires, even when there is a lot at stake
The courage it takes to follow your path when you know it’s right
Grief and healing when marriages end
Self-judgment for going after what we want or need
Growing and changing while in partnership
The importance of Inner Child healing in preparation for motherhood
Feelings of shame after divorce and receiving support
Listening to your intuition before marriage
Reaching a place of gratitude after experiencing loss through divorce
 
Bio: 
Gretchen H ill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
 
Guest Bio: 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
 
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lense of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonniegoff
 

Where The Story Begins

Welcome Incredibly Wanted.
 
In the first episode we learn about Gretchen’s early days of sobriety and how it impacted her views on motherhood, reconnecting with her spirituality, and how these changes began to impact her marriage.  We meet her friends, Bonnie Goff (Developmental Psychologist) and Samantha Jo Harvey (Mindset Coach) and listen in as they discuss their individual experiences contemplating motherhood, facing fears and limiting beliefs about what life must look like, pursuing motherhood later in life, spirituality, stopping hormonal birth control and connecting with natural cycles, and lots more. 
Topics Include:
Gretchen’s desire to reclaim her story
How sobriety impacted Gretchen’s sense of self related to motherhood
Gretchen begins to dream of a baby and shares it with her husband
How their own mothers shaped their perspective of motherhood
Learning from their own upbringing and societal expectations and doing motherhood differently
Discussing whether or not they wanted children at earlier points in their lives
How lived experiences has supported their own growth and outlook on motherhood
Gretchen attends her first Full Moon Circle and connects with the Sacred Feminine for the first time
Stopping hormonal birth control and experiencing natural cycles
A disastrous trip to Hawaii and Gretchen’s marriage begins to change
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Read more: gretchenhill.com
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com
Guest Bio: 
 
Sam is a former pro dancer + fitness expert turned performance coach, host of the Full Out podcast, and guide for ambitious women who are ready to live their lives full out and be their fully expressed + powerful selves so they can have it all: the man, the money, the magic (and everything in between). 
 
Instagram: @Samanthajoharvey
Instagram: @FulloutPodcast
Youtube: Samantha Jo Harvey
Dr. Bonnie Goff is a developmental psychologist with a profound dedication to understanding the intricate nuances of human growth and behavior through the lens of neurobiology. Raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult, she now uses her childhood experience and academic expertise to help others better understand their own unique life path. 
 
Instagram: @drbonniegoff
TikTok: @drbonniegoff

Prologue

Welcome to Incredibly Wanted. 
In this short episode, Gretchen Hill introduces herself: a single woman on a journey to become a mother on her own and shares how this podcast came to be. Join in as we embark on Gretchen’s fertility journey together, walking into the unknown and having meaningful conversations along the way about donor conception, IVF, redefining motherhood, healing after divorce, spirituality and in a broader sense, conversations about womanhood. This is a story about feeling the pull of life and choosing to follow it without knowing exactly where this road leads. 
Bio: 
Gretchen Hill is a writer, life lover, adventurer, flower grower, creative entrepreneur and lives in MA with her two great loves - her dogs, Bodhi and Stanley. But beyond the things she does, she’s a storyteller at heart. Gretchen tells stories about womanhood, love, friendship, family, spirituality, sobriety and making a life that feels touched by magic.
 
Let’s Connect on Socials: 
Instagram: @ms.gretchenhill
Instragram: @incrediblywanted
Website: gretchenhill.com